If

someone loved me so much that they were willing to do pretty much anything for me and cared so much about my well being - more for me than themself (yeah I know it shouldn’t be that way) - I feel like I would be a lot more appreciative than he is.

He either doesn’t realize just how much I truly care - which I can’t believe, or he just doesn’t care - which breaks my heart. I try so hard and I just look like an idiot.

I just want something mutual for once. I always love more. I always care more. I always try harder.